I am angry!

I am going to visit Dr. Michael Stockenhuber on Tuesday. Apparently they have been concerned about the issues that I have mentioned in my progress report.

I thought now I may have a chance to talk about my feelings and my positions. I searched my previous emails and it maid me so angry. How stupid I was to trust these people! Im angry about myself...

First year

Ethics Application was done.
Now useless, although I spent lots of time.


NVivo course
Asked and paid by RHD money

Coursework (Research Method- Quantitative)
Asked by myself

SSTAR (Staff and Students Talking About Research)
Attended and presented

Poster Competition
Prepared and sent, but I was not eligible as my first year was not passed.

AAEE2012 Conference at Melbourne
Presented but they said its not a PhD level.

TALE Conference in Malaysia
Paid and they accepted to publish as I had another conference at the same time

Internal presentation at Education
Presented while only few students presented.


Second year:

Confirmation
She made a change few days before confirmation. She said Im aggressive when I asked her why.

3Minutes Thesis
I asked her and she said its not for you (I guessed she did not want to be involved). So upset and I asked the T&L staff to help me.

TALE conference accepted for Journal (Engineering Pedagogy)
First, she accepted to contribute in submission process, then she said she cant. She paid from the Uni money I guess.

Accepted paper form Belgium 
Did not attend as I was worried about my research.

Coursework (Research Method- Qualitative) 
Asked by myself

Working on Theory of Change
Completely useless although she said its good.

Presented in a conference in UNSW
All by myself, she did not even know. (I was sure she will make it complicated for me).

Coding
Ive done and spent a lot of time. She admitted is good, but now I realised that it is not systematic at all. When she had not done whatever she was saying and I asked her why She said Im aggressive.

SSTAR
Presented.