How she thinks!

I got an email from Elena inviting me to present in SSTAR conference.

• How stupid I was when I presented last times!
• She even didn't come to my presentation last time.
• Whats the point?

I said no and she pretended to be nice saying I understand! Do you really understand? Do you really understand how you ruin my life? How you ruin my motivation? How you ruin my personality? How you ruin my self steam?
I don't want to think about it. Its worthless!